12. Overwhelming breaths of compassion that release tears (or almost do) as they force their way to the surface
This step produces deep wells of emotion that bubble up from inside and explode right out of the throat center. These are mental or physiological imprints from our past. These formations, also called samskaras are stored inside us and are forcing their way to the surface for immediate release.
This step made me feel very weak and scared until I learned what it was. From the time we are born we start recording everything we see in our environment. This is how we make sense of the world around us. The stronger the emotional attachment to the perceived past event (whether it’s good or bad) the more likely it is to leave a lasting impression.
In particular, childhood trauma is like taking an x-ray. As the image gets snapped, our body contracts and an imprint is recorded and stays inside until it comes to the surface. We either release it or choke it back down, burying it deep inside, in which case the trauma is literally still going to be a part of us. That is why it is so important to release them right away.
Especially when we start to wake up there will be many of these deep breaths of overwhelming compassion that rise to the surface.
These are the imprints trying to escape and it is very important to allow them to escape even if it means we start crying for what appears to be no reason. A song lyric or a conversation we overhear will suddenly trigger a rush of energy that rises from the solar plexus and moves from that lower energy center up through the heart and right into the throat where we release and shed past trauma by letting go of the samskara.
This is the only way to move beyond them. If we keep them inside and bury them then they will always try to escape until we stop resisting.
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